I must say, thank God for really so many
things. I feel that life is not really at its peak now, but I read something
once that said that we should praise God even in our darkest times, when we
really don't feel like praising God. I was at school today. I was waiting for
my awesome aunt to pick me for lunch. I was in a really sian mood. Then I heard
these people who were playing the guitar and singing worship songs upstairs. My
mood was really uplifted and I felt so encouraged. Sometimes just feel really lonely
in my walk with God in school. I know I'm not, but it still feels like that a
lot. When they praised God that time, I was reminded of Elijah in the desert.
(If I remember correctly) Oh. Elijah was in a cave.
He replied again, “I have zealously served the lord God Almighty. But the people of
Israel have broken their covenant with you, torn down your altars, and killed
every one of your prophets. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to
kill me, too.”15Then the lord told
him, “Go back the same way you came, and travel to the wilderness of Damascus.
When you arrive there, anoint Hazael to be king of Aram. 16Then anoint Jehu grandson of
Nimshi to be king of Israel, and anoint Elisha son of Shaphat from the
town of Abel-meholah to replace you as my prophet. 17Anyone who escapes from Hazael
will be killed by Jehu, and those who escape Jehu will be killed by Elisha! 18Yet I will preserve 7,000
others in Israel who have never bowed down to Baal or kissed him!”
1 Kings 19:14-18
I'm definitely nowhere near
Elijah, but the simple message to me was that there are other brothers and
sisters in faith with me here. I am not alone. Thank you Jesus for that :-) I
had a pleasant afternoon with my aunt, her friend and his daughter. The
daughter and father kept bickering and it was quite funny to watch. We ate so
much. I've been trying to lose weight so that I can eat as much as I want in
food fairy land, Japan. So far it's not really been working out D': HAHA.
I'm really thankful for my aunt because she really helped me out a lot today. I've been worried for a while now about uni applications.. Honestly, I was really troubled by it. I don't know what God wants me to do, but if I ask myself what I can see myself passionately doing daily, it was be something like teaching or social work. I think I really want to help women. My heart just kind of really aches for them, whenever I hear of these girls being exploited, abused and all. Being a girl myself. I know it's not much use feeling for them and not doing anything. I don't know how my path will lead to that. I pray that God will give me the courage, the loving heart and the eager hands to really be able to do something.. I am also troubled because I feel that this is what I want to pursue, then what kind of education am I supposed to pursue after JC? Social work? In that case, why work so hard? I don't know much about the requirements, but I think I don't need super good grades for that.. And I think I don't want to limit my options so quickly.
My aunt recommended a more specialized course like law or something like that... I think it really gave me a bigger perspective. I can do something and not choose to take up that job. In the case that the job I pursue doesn't work out, I can fall back on what I'm specialized in. In the end, Jesus, it's up to you!!!! Please show me what I should take and please lead the right people to advise me. Please help me to choose your path. I guessss... At the end of the day, even if I have dreams of earning a lot of money and living comfortably, like what is always said in church, if God calls you out of the boat, you step out of it in faith, knowing God is all-powerful and will not let you drown. In the end, although the fact that the future is so unknown terrifies me, it's assuring to know it's in Papa God's hands. AH... I'm glad I've finally expressed this. Thoughts keep jumping around in my head.
I'm really thankful for my aunt because she really helped me out a lot today. I've been worried for a while now about uni applications.. Honestly, I was really troubled by it. I don't know what God wants me to do, but if I ask myself what I can see myself passionately doing daily, it was be something like teaching or social work. I think I really want to help women. My heart just kind of really aches for them, whenever I hear of these girls being exploited, abused and all. Being a girl myself. I know it's not much use feeling for them and not doing anything. I don't know how my path will lead to that. I pray that God will give me the courage, the loving heart and the eager hands to really be able to do something.. I am also troubled because I feel that this is what I want to pursue, then what kind of education am I supposed to pursue after JC? Social work? In that case, why work so hard? I don't know much about the requirements, but I think I don't need super good grades for that.. And I think I don't want to limit my options so quickly.
My aunt recommended a more specialized course like law or something like that... I think it really gave me a bigger perspective. I can do something and not choose to take up that job. In the case that the job I pursue doesn't work out, I can fall back on what I'm specialized in. In the end, Jesus, it's up to you!!!! Please show me what I should take and please lead the right people to advise me. Please help me to choose your path. I guessss... At the end of the day, even if I have dreams of earning a lot of money and living comfortably, like what is always said in church, if God calls you out of the boat, you step out of it in faith, knowing God is all-powerful and will not let you drown. In the end, although the fact that the future is so unknown terrifies me, it's assuring to know it's in Papa God's hands. AH... I'm glad I've finally expressed this. Thoughts keep jumping around in my head.
On a
different note, I have finally completed chinese in school. Dear God, I'm
praying for a 7! I feel I messed up................. But I can't do anything now.
At least, I know my chinese is not that terrible and I pray that it was okay.
All thanks to my chinese tutor, who has been pushing me so hard for the past
years and God, that brought me through the many days of 作文, 抄作文 and exam papers. Phew! I am
going to pass the baton of Chinese work to my little brother now. He is trying
very hard to do the chinese compre. I will try my best not to be mean and laugh
at him....
