I am so drained now because it takes a lot of concentration to drive and I feel like I had several hours of it or something. Anyway, thanksgiving first because God should be glorified! I passed my driving test today!!!!!!!!!!!! Praise the LORD! 

(I think I'm going to ramble a bit today because my thoughts are everywhere) Probably anyone who knows me well enough knows I'm not the most careful person in the world right... I know that too when I'm being honest with myself. It's a flaw.... okay? Anyway, I couldn't pass my test the first round because of several horrendous mistakes, so today was my second try and I was really praying for it to be all okay. 

I messed up my vertical parking and slightly freaked out. I hit the curb at the back when I was doing parallel parking and I was feeling really scared that I would fail already. My tester was a reasonable guy, (in which God answered my prayer) he actually went out of the car to check if I had striked the curb instead of straightaway assuming, and also showed me my mistake. So so thankful. He also had a very encouraging smile and thick mustache, and he didn't scold me when I made mistakes, so I am ultra thankful. God was really helping me, I felt it was a miracle I passed. Even the route I took outside, was an easier route in my opinion. So so thankful. I wanted to pinch my cheeks when I realised I passed. 

*Inner scream* 

I'm still so scared of driving outside. Even more so now, because I am literally a licensed driver and will not be forgiven so easily when I make silly mistakes. My aunt took me out on a drive on her car just now and I'm internally hitting myself for being SO careless.... :-((( I'm used to the driving centre's car and am not as good as controlling her signal signs and predicting the brakes and all........ Like I felt like I threw out what I learnt out of the window... I kept forgetting to signal and everything. I nearly banged a car in the carpark and overshot the stopline by a lot...... because I missed seeing the traffic light when I was accelerating..... Feeling really horrible... Even though I got my license, I really really need to make an effort to be a good and responsible driver on the road. And not let my tester's kindness to waste. He actually told me, "Drive safely" when he passed me. I really feel like I'm letting his good intentions go to waste if I do not perform on the road now like when I did during the test. Sigh.... 

God, please save me! Help me to be careful driver on the road, not to endanger others and to be observant and to discern the road conditions well!!!! 

Still really give thanks because I no longer have to top up money into my driving centre's account. YAY! My money can stop outflowing. This whole driving thing has mainly taught me two lessons: 1. Plan my time ahead to use less money 2. Ask others for advice first so that you don't do silly things and waste money. 

Thank God for everything nonetheless. Praise Him who is kind and great!